Comments on: Only now

By: diana

diana — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 14:46:00 +0000

Last year I felt like I was on a roller-coaster that I couldn’t get off of, one that I knew was going to crash into a solid concrete wall at 180 mph, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. And the terror of the future that I knew was coming was like nothing I’d experienced before.

So it did crash, and I couldn’t stop it, and it blew my life to smithereens for a while, and I’m still picking up the pieces. And probably always will be. But it made me look at what’s left of my life, and sometimes it feels so sweet I can’t even breathe. I never had that before. And I think my mom would have liked that.

By: MizMell

MizMell — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 11:46:00 +0000

Stay hopeful. Take comfort in the small everyday pleasures that are too easy taken for granted.
Life is truly a gift.

By: Magpie Ima

Magpie Ima — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 19:22:00 +0000

I hear you about the future. The older we get the more we (and our loved ones) run into The Bad Stuff.

And that Bad Stuff? It does pass though always leaving traces behind.

Your blog, your writing, is really a gift. Thank you.

By: Nick

Nick — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 14:16:00 +0000

Good to see you back though.
love
Nick

By: Richard

Richard — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 10:27:00 +0000

I once read this at a friend's funeral. It helped me. Hope it helps you.

Lossa love

R

The room was suddenly rich and the great bay-window was
Spawning snow and pink roses against it
Soundlessly collateral and incompatible:
World is suddener than we fancy it.

World is crazier and more of it than we think,
Incorrigibly plural. I peel and portion
A tangerine and spit the pips and feel
The drunkenness of things being various.

And the fire flames with a bubbling sound for world
Is more spiteful and gay than one supposes -
On the tongue on the eyes on the ears in the palms of one's hands -
There is more than glass between the snow and the huge roses.

By: Custancia

Custancia — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 09:09:00 +0000

I know that you are strong enough to get and use the help, love and support you need for you, and all your family to come through this in the best possible way. Good Luck.

By: Hope

Hope — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 21:14:00 +0000

When people go on a journey, I like to tell them ‘traveling mercies’. It’s a line from an Ann LaMott book. Where she got it I do not know, but what I am suddenly stricken by just now is how these same words can be for anyone moving forward in time for whom you might want to wish a little light so, traveling merices, mama.

By: ~JJ!

~JJ! — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 15:26:00 +0000

I’m so sorry.

By: Charlotte

Charlotte — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 05:03:00 +0000

Take all the rest you need. We’ll still be here when you get back.

I hope in RL you can surround yourself with people who are understanding and very kind to you. I find the hardest thing is to admit when things are bad, but it’s amazing how people rally when I do.

By: alimum

alimum — Wed, 12 Dec 2007 03:49:00 +0000

I have missed you.

And I have nothing to say except that I, too, remind myself that all things, good and bad, come to an end.